9-15-03

Okay, so I was bored, and I decided to actually work on this stupid site, because apparently people read it. A lot of people. As much as I'd like to feel loved, it feels kind of disturbing. How much of a life must you people not have to spend time living vicariously through me? Okay, so to recap, stuff happened. It just did. It's over now. If you have questions, feel free to ask them. Just don't expect answers. And if you feel that I must give one, I will point back at this page and ask you why you didn't read it. Because if you had read it you would have known that I'm not going to answer questions. Got it? Hey, I never said I could ask questions... Oh, and sorry about the picture page. I'm trying to figure out how to put up all of the new pictures I have. 3 in total. I know, awesome right? I really need a camera. Well, I have a camera, I just need to bring it with me occasionally.

In other news... okay, I seriously just forgot what it was. Ah, okay, I remember now. Everwood season premiere today. So you will all know where I'll be at 9 PM. Oh well, get a life of your own. Mine's preoccupied.

9-18-03

I'm still not used to updating this thing. It's not like I have a lot to say anyway. Okay, so I seem to have this feeling that someone is hiding from me. I don't really know why, but it's just weird. It's really stupid too, because it's not like I'm going to stalk you, and you know who you are. In other news, I missed The O.C. on Tuesday, and I'm really pissed off about it. I have yet to find 7th Heaven anywhere, and Jennifer wants to watch it, so I've got to find it soon. They don't EasyView it for some reason. So stupid. I got Everwood though, so I'm happy about that. I've got to ask Fraz or Choirmom if they can fax me the sides that they get, but I don't have a fax, so that could be a problem. I've got sides for Gilmore Girls, but I haven't printed them out yet. I should probably do that before the power goes out. Stupid hurricane. Stupid everything. Nice waves though, if it gets too bad here I'll drive down to the beach, maybe get in few sessions before school starts again. Still have to get my board fixed though. Last time I checked Fairfax Surf Shop was renovating, so I have no idea when the grand reopening will be. It's probably already happened. I missed the sale they had before they closed, and I missed the one when they opened. I really needed a new rashgaurd. Anyway, I've offically decided that miracles happen, they just don't happen to me. More philosophical thoughts to come...

9-20-03

Again, nothing new to say. Although I did survive the hurricane, and after a 4 day weekend, I might be well rested. Finally got the O.C. today, watched it, hated Mischa Barton in it. You know, the usual. Dead Like Me soon to come. Plus a new Queer Eye for the Straight Guy. Kyan is just so hot. I meant it. In all seriousness, he is hot. He may be gay, but sure, why not? Let's just say he's hot. Rented Grosse Pointe Blank a couple of days ago. Watched the first half before the power went out and just finally caught the end. I absolutely love John Cusack. Man is a genius. Absolute genius. Such a great actor, I love pretty much all of his movies. I'm either going to have to find Being John Malkovich or rent it later. Suppossedly it's Cameron Diaz's best work. And I know what you're thinking. Renting movies? Me? Yeah, I know, I'm selling out, or should I say buying out? It doesn't really matter though, the point is that I actually have money to spend on movies and CDs, although I probably won't spend much of it on CDs. I just bought a new one though, So Much For the Afterglow from Everclear. I love it. It passed my criteria for buying CDs, meaning it had more than 4 songs I liked on it. I'll probably put up a review later on. I'm not much for trying to fix the site, but I will let you know what's going on in my life. Peace out my brother from another mother... Hey, you've got to love Billy Aaron Brown.

9-21-03

Okay, I've been reading my old posts, and I've come to realize, I'm just not that funny. I have no idea why you people laugh, I'm not making jokes. Oh well, I really don't care, I'll just stop making an effort. Everytime I make a joke I usually said something really horrible, hurt someone's feelings, and in return I get some really nasty looks. I don't think funny and I work together. We're two peas in two seperate pods. I'm also really shy. If I'm around a bunch of people I don't know that well, I'm likely to make an ass of myself. An incredibly large ass of myself. And if I sort of know them, I'm likely to not be able to say anything at all. And when I finally get around to saying it, the moment has passed and everyone else is talking about something else, laughing about something else, and in some cases, laughing about me. It's just not fair. I can't believe I'm so annoying. I don't know how you people put up with me. It's a miracle. Wait, no it's not, miracles don't happen to me. So, take your 7th Heaven-induced miracles and get rid of me. I'm bad karma. I'm uber-bad karma. I'm a German woman with bad chi. I'm absolutely horrible. But don't you just love me?

9-25-03

Feeling really stupid at the moment. Well, in general, this week has just made me feel really stupid. Today was actually a good day, despite the fact that I wanted to hit myself over the head in each and every one of my classes. Lunch was great, but that was about it. After school I went over to the CD Cellar and I got American Hi-Fi, Cauterize, and Seven and the Sun. And I just love the fact that I'm probably the only person I know who's heard of two of those bands. Sarah IMed me last night, which was good, because I hardly ever talk to her, and I only see her like once or twice a year. Which will probably be cut down to zero times a year because I doubt she'll go to the party this year. So it'll just be me, sitting around with Dusty and his new girlfriend and listening to Blind Melon. Which I don't really object to, but it's not how I want to spend my New Year's Eve.

I actually think that parts of me just happen to be pulling in different directions. Part of me thinks that this year I've actually become more social, and in all reality, I probably haven't. I really just wish I had the all in one best friend package again. Because right now my two sides are split between people and situations. I hate feeling like I have to switch back and forth between the two and I wish there was just something in between. But there isn't, and I'll get over it. There's no point in looking when there's nothing to find. And there's no need to look again, because life doesn't double-check with you, why should you give it the same courtesy?